In love w my sibling

I’ve stopped binge eating the last few weeks. In its place, I’ve been asking for more physical touch from people. And ive noticed that my intense desire for physical touch is ignored by my mind, because it feels that’s not “socially acceptable”. So then my mind encourages me to get the endorphin release in a more “safe way” – over eating. Eating fried foods or ice cream or muffins. This is powerful stuff people, listen up. Really. Its not food that we want. Its other humans that we want. Oh.

And im in love w my younger brother.

I am sexually attracted to him. And I haven’t told him. I’ve just told other people. and other people are okay with it. Because they know me, and love me, and so they find a way to understand. I guess. And also, I think by me admitting that I’m attracted to my sibling, and not only him, but all male family members, it gives other people freedom to admit things they r ashamed about. A few ppl have told me they’ve been very attracted to their dad’s, or their cousins. So yes. Please. Share.

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Im crying all the time because I’m resisting my feelings for my brother. He’s 18 and I’m 23. I live with him and my dad and my uncle. I’ve been pulling away from him since my sexual desires for him became so powerful. We share a bed at my moms apartment sometimes and one night i felt like he was my old boyfriend laying next to me, and i felt immense attraction. I feel like hiding in a cave like “I should be ashamed of my feelings. How dare I feel this way!” I’m sharing this because I want people to talk about this with! Like others who have same experiences.
xo
AB

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